02.13.26 // 12:55am-1:24am

I've been avoiding writing. I've been avoiding sleep. Mostly avoiding the connection I have. Those are the two ways I've been able to access it physically.

But you see, when I get downloads, they're mostly about myself, another individual, spiritual topics. The downloads are mostly informative, so I just receive them and take note.

However, through writings and dreams I'll be connected in a very different way. As if there's no filter to what I could receive. That's the scary part. That's what I've been avoiding. It's a gamble every time, especially with sleep. I'm more prone to be spiritually attacked while I'm asleep. That's when I'm "supposed to rest". Not for me. When my body is asleep, that's supposed to be time for my conscious to wander, I haven't learned how to control it yet. I tried a few times, made it close, got scared, and stopped. Being scared is not an excuse. I need to see what's out there and report back. Some people will think I'm crazy, but that's okay.

I don't care to write much about my daily life anymore. This mission is much bigger than me. People are dying in the streets, the "elite" eating babies, they're poisoning us, there's an energetic warfare. These things have been going on for a while, but this time people are staring to wake up. They are scared of losing control. They don't have anything else.

I need to see what's out there. We need to reveal what else they're hiding. But I'm not sure it'll make much difference if people aren't willing to receive it.

I'm trying not to lose touch of what really matters. I've had so many distractions around me lately. They're doing that on purpose and I allowed myself to get distracted again. At least they aren't unhealthy distractions like before. We'll chat more soon.