06.25.21

I didn't write much yesterday and I'm not sure how much I'll write today. My first day sober wasn't as hard as I thought it would be, but maybe that's because it's only the beginning. I still feel motivated and hopeful. Things will become more difficult once I start experiencing withdraws. I need to figure out what to do with my time because I think it'll make things easier down the line. Today I mostly watched YouTube and did a bit of art. I want to find some online classes to audit, but I don't know if it would be too much to handle with everything. I have lots to do, but most of the time I just sit around. It's hard to do things when I feel so alone. I don't really have friends and that makes me sad sometimes.