06.23.21

Tomorrow I'll be saying goodbye to drugs. I know it's going to be difficult, but it's time to leave that part of my life behind me.

I'm starting out patient rehab on Monday (06.28) and I'm still trying to process all of the fear and doubts that have been coming up for me. I don't really have anyone to talk to about it, which is unfortunate, but hopefully that's something I can bring up in rehab. [side note: I use "rehab" and "treatment" interchangeably because I don't know how I feel about saying rehab. There's a lot of stigma around addicts and I don't want people making assumptions about me based on that. I think one of the reasons why I care so much is because I still carry some shame around that part of me.]