12.06.25 // 10:27pm-10:54pm

It's been a while since I've written. I'm trying to get back to journaling more consistently. I have this one for writing out my thoughts, another for channeled messages, I set one up today for random creativity. Something I can use to create freely with no pressure.

I'm starting to create again. It feels nice. I played electric guitar today and it was really fun. I got nervous, well, more so self conscious about how I sounded. I still played through it until my brain wanted to switch tasks.

There's so much to write about but I struggle with what's most important to put on the page. It's all important to me. Maybe I should make a list of topics or questions to reference when I'm writing. I typically brain dump whatever is on my mind at the moment.

Anyway, my next event is less than one week away. I'm going to offer free photo portraits, clothes, and crafting. There's so much more I wanted to include but I'm only one person. I had to remind myself that I can only do so much. That's not meant to be limiting, it's to stay realistic. I need to ensure that everything goes as smoothly as possible. I'm excited and also working through some anxiety about it. I need to advertise more but I'm not feeling the best about showing up on camera. I'll get over it though. I need to post a video soon. I'm starting to feel better about it. I'm going to force myself to film tomorrow.

Anyway, I think I'm making decent progress at the moment. Slow but steady. Better than nothing. Right now I'd say I'm focusing on listening to myself more. Mainly about what I need. I've been letting my body sleep when it needs. I'll do whatever I feel like working on in the moment. Existing as I am without feeling guilty.