12.18.25 // 11:56pm-1:27am

These writings don't do my life justice. There's so much that goes on. How am I supposed to cover everything through writing? Maybe I should start including photos in my journaling. It would be cool to do one polaroid per day. I'm trying to think of ways to document my life better. Videos might be easier but then I'd have to edit them.

Anyway, 2025 is coming to an end. I'm getting to that point where I'm starting to prep for the new year. Thinking about what changes I want to make in my life. One of those changes is documenting and sharing my life more. People need to witness others being human. Maybe it'll encourage them to be more human too. We are more than just human, but that's a conversation for another time. Part of me feels hesitant to share because I know not everyone will receive it the way it's meant. But I also know those who are meant to receive it will. Anyway, I'm rambling.

My ornament making workshop is tomorrow. We've sold six tickets so far. I'm hoping more tickets sell. I really hope I start making enough through Creators Perspective to make all of the events free or donation based. I realized I don't like the idea of charging for tickets. I know I have to make money to fund it, but there are other ways.

I'm close to getting monetized on redacted. It would be great to start earning consistent revenue on there. I'm sure I could if I start posting consistently again. I need to stop hesitating about the content I want to make and share. There's a reason it popped into my brain so I should just do it. Holding back is a disservice to myself and anyone else this message is for. I can't hold back anymore. I'm doing everything in my power to live as freely as I'm meant to, and showing others they can do the same.

I started to figure out how to trade successfully. I was testing my theory today and made around five hundred. I'll be getting a funded account this weekend. I'm pretty confident I can pass the evaluation now that I have a working strategy. I gave redacted a small intro on how I do things. Once she starts recognizing the patterns she's gonna do great. I'm excited because this will be such a huge step toward financial freedom.

Lot's of shifts are happening. This is one of them. Another is my diet. I've been eating better and I can feel the difference. Who would've thought, making healthier choices actually helps you feel better. Such a crazy concept, I know. Jokes aside, I do plan on actually treating myself better and not just saying it. The better I feel, the more energy I'll have to help others. I tend to help/give to others before myself. That needs to change before I get burned out again or hurt.

I still haven't publicly shared what happened with the last shop. I don't know where to start. My heart still hurts. I deserve to share my side of the story. I need to start that process before the end of the year. I don't need to be carrying that energy over. Every time I think of him my brain goes down a rabbit hole. I wonder if his brain does the same. I wonder and ponder many things. I wish people could know the full story, but no one ever will, and I have to be okay with that. Anyway, the point is I need to shed the old to make space for the new. I need to release the chapter that has closed. Part of that process if sharing. Maybe that can be the first episode of the Creators Perspective podcast.

I need to start feeding my soul. Listening to its desires. One of those desires is publishing a podcast. Another is doing free events. Another is sharing as much as I can with the world. It'll reach who it needs to. That's part of what's so beautiful about this. The connection you feel is unlike any other. Knowing you are safe to be free because we are all humans experiencing this life. More people need to live in this truth. So many are scared to live. I was like them too at one point, so I understand to a certain extent. Life is beautiful and wonderful once you start to live. I'm hoping they can see that one day.

Anyway, this new year is going to be exciting. I'm going to open my first free community center. I'm going to launch the Creators Perspective podcast. I'm going to travel to new places. I don't want to reveal too much, but all very exciting. This is going to be a lovely new chapter. My favorite one yet. I know it to be so. Many great things are happening for everyone involved.

Alright, I should start winding down. Until next time.